Some months ago my two and half year old niece added few more sentences to her grammatical kitty. How a child grows from that tiny little babe to a toddler that babbles and experiments with various words is still a mystery to me , sometimes I can’t just understand these growth processes in them, they happen so fast! If you are not so careful , you will miss out on those awesome moments of their childhood.
Back to my niece’s new sentences , I was doing the dishes one night when she sneaked up behind me, she held my legs and she asked ‘ aunty tolu , what’s you doing?’ . I turned to her and laughed with joy , because that was the first time she asked a question in a direct way. She asked again ‘ aunty tolu , what’s you doing?’ , this time with a little agitation and curiosity. I replied ‘i am washing plates ‘ and then she asked ‘why’, and I replied ‘because they are dirty ‘, i thought that would be the end of her questions but she went further and asked ‘why are they dirty?’.
Since then she has never stopped bombarding me and others in the house with the what and why questions. From making phone calls to having our bath and watching TV, she keeps asking ‘what’s you doing?’
One day, as I was dressing up in the bathroom, she followed me and asked in her tiny voice ‘aunty tolu, what’s you doing? It suddenly reminded me of my relationship with God.
Over the years I have had many situations in which I have questioned God , and deeply called on Him to ask him questions, ‘what is He’s doing’, ‘why is He taking so long to answer me? ‘, ‘where was He when I fell into a particular sin?’, and how is that I am the only one going through a specific life sapping situation, when will He come and destroy my enemies? .
Like my niece , I don’t usually wait for His answers , i am always so wrapped up in the pains and the questions that I don’t even know when He answers. But one thing I have come to realise is this; He always answers every of my prayers but His answers might not be what am expecting , so like a fool I go ahead and ask Him the same questions He has already answered.
Just last week, my sister told me that my niece has gone from ‘the why stage’ to the ‘okay stage’. She no longer asks for reasons why things are the way they are , not that she is not inquisitive again but once she asks the first time and she is given an answer , she replies with’ okay’ and let go of the subject matter , trusting completely in the answer she has been given.
Deciding to be like my niece, I have thought in my heart to employ the ‘okay method’ in my relationship with God, I still love asking questions and God knows there are a lot of them to ask, but the difference will be this; I will ask each question once and waits patiently for His answer, as soon as He does, I will go ahead and say ‘Okay Lord’ and trust Him completely .
After all He’s the Elshaddi , the Creator of the all world ,and more than ever I am so confident in His Love for me , so i am seriously waiting for His next answer so I can boldly tell Him ‘OKAY LORD’.
Writer: Tolulope Odeyemi