We all react differently when going through a tough time. While some women talk to people around them and seek a shoulder to lean on, some women withdraw from people around them and go deep within themselves to find their own way out. They both have their pros and cons.
In a series of tweet, Lota Chukwu who is well known for her role as Kiki in Jenifa’s Diary, shares how she used to withdraw from people and liked to be by herself when facing challenges. She says it is not always the best.
So, I want to talk about talking about stuff you go through.
So today, I got put on blast by my entire family because “your mind is too deep.” What that means is I don’t talk about stuff.
This is a character trait I have had for the longest time. I find it so difficult talking about stuff I am going through.
I can literally be depressed and lock myself up in my house for weeks and talk to nobody and just be on my own and say “I am fine” if asked.
People who know me can tell now when I’m sinking into a hole and when they forcefully try to pry, I lash out.
Recently, I had a dear friend who lost his mother to cancer and I’d been there for him for most of the journey of her health troubles…
so I was one of the first people he called to tell she had died. I called him immediately and we talked but subsequently he stopped…
…taking calls. I tried to reach him through several means (messages, calls, DMs) but he never responded to any of it.
One day, I got really mad at him and I sat down telling myself how he was being super selfish & I’d done my part. I was ready to let him be
And then something occurred to me… THIS IS HOW I MAKE EVERYONE ELSE FEEL!! Every time!! I make everyone around me feel handicapped.
They see me going through the worst shit and I still smile and say “I’m fine”. I instead try to use reverse psychology & flip the questions
It’s not on purpose. I don’t know how to let my guard down. I’ve been through so much so early to know that I’ll always be good.
I might get lost in the moment and forget that, but years of being alone teaches you defense mechanisms that seem like superpowers.
If you have someone who doesn’t like talking about stuff let them be, give them time. Be there around the periphery of their vision.
At their time, they will open up (or maybe not) but just show them they aren’t alone. In actions¬ words. Maybe one day they’ll let you in
I hope this thread helps you help a recluse going through shit. To God be the glory.