There is such a negative stigma surrounding mental health and depression, although, people are beginning to come out more and talk about it.
Lifestyle vlogger, Lizzie Loves share a personal story of mental health and depression. She talked about dealing with depression at the young age of 17 and how she came through it.
She also explained how the worry about her mother’s mental health worsened her situation especially in a foreign environment.
My first encounter with mental health, I think I was 17, I was depressed. I had a very challenging relationship. It wasn’t really good. Depression feels like I just see darkness when I think about that age, that time of my life.
I see darkness, I don’t see outside of my life. I think sometimes, when you are depressed, it can be hard because it feels like you’re being selfish. It’s hard because you can’t get out of your head and I couldn’t speak to anyone either and I couldn’t express my feelings. I just see black, I see darkness, I see trapness, I see cage.
When I look back and I think about being 17 and being 18, I just see sadness. Not wanting to do anything but wanting to do at the same time. If I were to go on a walk, I didn’t know how my body would get up and go for a walk because I was basically too depressed to do so and at the time, I don’t think I knew what it was so, I countered my depression with food. Food was a comfort for me and I ate.
I kept on eating and I put on weight. I got silent if I’m depressed or you don’t hear from me but some people are such extrovert, you won’t know they are depressed because they can put on this act which I can’t do. So, it comes in all different types of forms.