In a chat with Pulse, Waje talked about her experience wit depression, at the time , her career was doing well as she just released her album. She got signed as a Glo ambassador and was nominated in four categories in World Music Awards.
on anger and depression she said,
“The thing is, many times when people talk about depression, I always come from the angle where there is a difference between depression and anger. A depressed person does not even know that they are depressed, they will give every reason to think that they are not in that place. When you are depressed, you don’t want to eat, you don’t want to go out, your life stops literally.
“I have come to realise that being someone in the limelight, you have to guard your territory, I have been in that space where… I wouldn’t say mine was depression, mine was anger management, it was a kind of depression but the only way I could express myself was through anger.
“I remember that time, that was the year we got signed as Glo ambassadors so actually my career was doing really good. I just released my album, I was nominated in four categories in World Music
“But I had anger issues, why? Because I just didn’t see myself the way I wanted to see myself. I saw myself through everybody’s eye. I would look at you and whatever you tell me about me is what I would accept.
I remember one time I was so angry. I didn’t want to break my TV because na me pay for the TV, so I broke my phone. Can you imagine holding a phone and bending it like literally bending it, you can imagine the rage for being able to break a phone” she said.
on how she dealt with it, she said,
“I changed my environment, the people I hung out with a lot. I changed my friends, I started looking out for friends that would tell me things to boost my ego. The truth is that your friend is the person that would tell you the truth about you.
What is the truth, the truth is that you are beautiful, amazing, peculiar, unique, strong, bold, false, yes but that doesn’t take anything away from you.
“I started spending time with friends who would lift me up, a lot of it had to do with Uzzy because I was working with Uzzy at that time, half the time out sessions would be Uzzy talking to me, he was like my sponsor, he was like my therapist.
We would have conversations, sometimes it was just me talking he would not even give me any answers. Then I go to This Present House, Pastor Tony Rapu, I started going through that detoxification and discipleship.
It was just a personal thing for me. Thank God I was able to recognize love when I found it, because those that really love me, it was in their actions, not from their mouth.”