For months, she was in a constant state of sadness and it wouldn’t just go away. Paula Rumm who is the editor-in-chief of Motherhood In-Style Magazine, later figured out it was depression.
In her new vlog, she share how she was able to fight depression and get her happy back.
Running on the treadmill, the yoga mat and the Zumba became my happy place. I was always happy when I was dancing Zumba. I was always happy when I was running on the treadmill and on the yoga mat. And it has also been scientifically proven that exercising helps you release a few good chemical called the endorphin and also helps relieve depression but it can be short-lived. It’s not sustainable. So, I kept on exercising five times a week and this helped me pull through to a certain level.
When you are depressed, one of the last things you want to do is talk to God and I wasn’t any different. I didn’t feel like praying, spending time with God, reading my bible or any of the things that I normally would do. but on this certain day when I felt like the walls were closing in on me, I knew that I needed help and I needed immediate relief. So, I prayed. It was a struggle for me to get down on my knees to pray but eventually I did and it helped me.
Praying gave me clearer perspective as to why I was depressed and rather than being depressed, God showed me what I should be thankful for and I started making a list of all the things that I should be thankful for. I had things to be thankful for but the depression had blinded my eyes to those things and I thought I was the most miserable person on earth.
Change of environment
This happened after I lost my brother in-law and my brother. They died one week within each other. My brother in-law lost his battle to cancer. One week later, my own brother, a father of four also died untimely. It was so depressing and gloomy. I was despondent and I wanted to run away. I just wanted to go somewhere, away from the gloom, the anxiety, the depression and the sadness. I just wanted to get out and so, we packed our bags and went somewhere and we lost ourselves to the sight and sound of the city of Hamburg. We just did everything that we could do and I forgot everything totally. You can’t totally forget everything totally but it was a huge distraction from the pain.
And when we came back, I could tell that I wasn’t the same person that left before that trip.
Do not underestimate the power of music to fight depression. I stumbled across a song, Have it all by Jason Marz, and I listened to the lyrics of this song, it was so apt, that song is a mood lifter. It’s a secular song, it’s not even a religious song but the beats, the lyrics especially lifted my mood in a powerful way. I played this song over again until I was able to memorize it.
Take on a new project
I’m a mom and a wife but to be very honest, I’ve never really enjoyed cooking. I’m a good cook and can cook but it hasn’t been something that I do out of a lot of pleasure but something happened and I just started developing interest in the exotic menus and dishes. So, I would go online and come up with recipes and cook them. So, I was making these exotic dishes that my family enjoyed, so, dinner time was something for everyone to look up to. Soon, cooking became a family affair and it bonded us together and we are always very happy.
Watch her talk in the video below