The story of this South African woman, Bucie MaNjomane Mhlongo reveals how damaging sexual abuse can be. 14 years ago, Bucie went to live with her uncle and his son, who is her cousin raped her multiple times and threatened to kill her if she told anyone.
She has kept this secret since then but she can’t continue to do that anymore. After several attempts to kill herself, she decided to reveal the secret that is keeping her hostage.
Sadly, she has been diagnosed of depression and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). While Bucie is aware of what her revelations on social media will cause, especially from her family, she says she is ready to take it all.
According to her, she is exhausted.
Some of my family members will be shocked but hey I am tired of keeping this secret because it is making me to be sick but here it goes
My Name is Busisiwe Mhlongo and I am 24 years old… born in 1994/09/18 ♥️… In 2004, I was staying at my Uncle’s house in Harding, KZN..his First born son (we call him Sphamo) who was 17/18 years at that time would call me to his room and rape me (I was 10 years old).. this started when I was doing grade 4 until I was doing grade 6, around June because that’s when I had my periods for the first time but he did Rape me Vaginally and anally.
He did a lot of things that I wouldn’t like to re-iterate here.. I stayed with someone who sexually abused me and I didn’t tell anyone because he said he was going to kill me with Ratex. I kept that secret until this year cause I was struggling mentally and emotionally.
Back in February I attempted to commit suicide, overdosed pills-
In April I overdosed pills again-
In June, I starved myself hoping to die-
In August, I overdosed pills again-
In September, I attempted to jump out my Res but the security saw me and I couldn’t cause he said Jump I will catch you-
In October, I started cutting myself from my hand to my elbow and if I feel like the razor isn’t sharp enough I would get another one- I did it until it was beyond my control and I was admitted and of course Psychiatry Ward was my ward. stayed there for weeks and was diagnosed with depression and PSTD….
Generally if you know me- I am a Happy person and I love everything about everyone, to be diagnosed with depression was heavy for me and the medication is just too much. My mom and my other family members are aware of this now that have done drastic things. I have never got a call from my cousin to say he is sorry.
What he did to me was damaging physically, emotionally and sexually. He robbed me my childhood and virginity. I will never be able to know what it’s like to be a child because of the things he did to me. He used a baby oil so that his penis would go in, he would put baby inside me so I can be “wet for him”. He did it for 3 years and he was never satisfied. I have been struggling to even wake up in the morning and eat, let alone to trust a man, I am struggling to believe that I will be fine because depression is not a fly by night thing I am living with depression and PSTD………….
I have lost everything you can think of and if I win this battle – it’s game over for my cousin! I am coming for everything and I know this will be a lot of drama but I am not going to protect a rapist…
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